Our bedtime talks. "So did anything make you sad today?" The floodgates opened.
Sobs so deep her shoulders shook. "I miss my Mommy in Ghana." Thankful that I
have been graced for this moment right here. I knew what to say. Words that the
Lord has whispered to my own heart time and again. Our every longing, every ache
in this life is really just our hearts crying out for heaven. For the day when
broken families won't exist. And we won't ever have to feel this kind of pain
again. This day is a blessing for many. But sometimes life breaks you, and
sometimes Jesus takes you DEEPER when all along you had expected to go higher,
and for some, this day brings a sting of pain. For the sons and daughters who
are growing up without the mothers who carried them in their womb and birthed
them. Because families are broken. And adoption is only a bandaid. And sometimes
days like this re-expose the wound. For the woman who has grieved through the
turbulent waves of infertility, and this is a dreaded day that suffocates her
and sends daggers through her heart. For the day I complained about the piles of
laundry and God flashed Dawn Grooters in my mind and whispered "she would love
to be doing Kael's laundry again"...for the mothers who have experienced the
loss of a child and will never again feel the same on this day. For the single
moms who've been abandoned by their husbands and never expected to be doing this
parenting thing on their own. For the woman chained to the regret of her
abortion. For the birthmothers who have given up their children in love and will
never get to see them again. For those whose mothers have passed away and this
day just brings more heaviness and more grieving. For the Momma who feels like
she's messed up just one too many times and feels unworthy of receiving honor on
this day. Yes. Stingers. This Mommyhood thing is the highest of callings. And
sometimes I think that's why it can hurt so much. Learning myself that OUR
BROKENNESS DOES NOT DEFINE US. God does. Let Him remind you who you are today. ❤️
For the Momma who is feeling just a little too imperfect today read this:
http://www.aholyexperience.com/2014/05/why-mothers-day-is-really-just-for-the-birds/
For the Momma who needs to be reminded of her worth today watch this....with some kleenex nearby:
For the Momma who needs a change in perspective today watch this:
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