Wednesday, September 22, 2010

2 Years and 1 Day Ago

Exactly 2 years and one day ago I was sitting in church and felt God speak His plans for our family to adopt into my heart. Now, today, as you read this we are flying in the air, headed across the oceans to finally bring home this sweet boy who was born into my heart that day back on September 21, 2008. What perfect timing. You know what that was when I say I ‘felt God speaking adoption into my heart’?

It was our son saying, “Mommy, will you come?”


“Daddy, will you come for me?”


It was God whispering into my soul that He has a Purpose. He has a Mighty Plan. Will I step out in obedience and be a part of it?

Seek justice, encourage the oppressed. Defend the cause of the fatherless, plead the case of the widow. (Isaiah 1:17)

Or will I shrivel in fear of the unknown.

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. We love because he first loved us. If anyone says, "I love God," yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen. (1 John 4:18-20)

Jesus came for me when I was broken, desperate, empty, and fatherless. How then can I not give of myself in return?

Then Jesus said to his disciples, "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me." (Matthew 16:24)

Dear Justice~

We’re coming.

Love,
Daddy & Mommy

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Samuel's New Name

So many times throughout our adoption journey I would find myself sitting in my closet, Bible in tow, crying out to God. And often times, I would be thinking along these lines….God, it’s just not fair. It’s just not right. I’m not talking 3 year-old-level-‘that’s-not-fair’-whiny-terms. I’m talking about that deep gut-wrenching feeling that cried out from inside of me saying something is wrong with this picture.

In the beginning I was really struggling with the idea that Samuel’s mother would have to give him ‘away’. It just didn’t seem fair.

After our first trip to Ghana in December we had encountered a lot of junk in Samuel’s village. The way he was treated and ridiculed for having albinism just wasn’t right. The way Samuel’s birthmother was taken advantage of by the men around her just wasn’t fair. In fact, the last moments I spent with Samuel’s mother, I had handed her an envelope with a letter in it. Out of nowhere one of the men from the village came up and snatched the letter right out of her hands and opened it because he thought I had just given her money. Luckily Kofi had just walked up to us and witnessed it happening and he rebuked the guy. From then on we were advised to give any gifts to Samuel’s birthmother in secret so that the other men in the village wouldn’t claim it for themselves.

After the entire mess of the way the Embassy had handled our case back in June (you can read an excerpt about that disaster by clicking here )it had felt as though we had just been thrown in the ditch, left to die. Really, that’s how I felt. Everything about that whole fiasco screamed from the bottom of my heart THIS IS NOT FAIR! THIS IS NOT RIGHT! It killed me to think about the hope and excitement that we had built up in Samuel to come home, only to have it all crushed in a matter of a few days. It was the most awful feeling. On the outside I was crying, and hurt, and broken-hearted. On the inside my heart and soul screamed out for this to be made right. Everything about this situation seemed wrong. And we longed for fairness.

Behind the blogging scenes, other unjust things happened as well. Some of these I won’t be blogging about. Others I will share and will come out in future posts. But what you need to know is this: Samuel has faced so much adversity. And he is a resilient little boy. He has endured awful hardships.

It was some time after we returned home from our June trip when I came across this verse in my time reading the Psalms:

I know that the Lord secures justice for the poor and upholds the cause of the needy. (Psalm 140:12)

WOW. What confidence David the psalmist had in our Almighty God. Doesn’t this verse just sound so sure and confident and solid?!?! When I read this verse, it was like right then and there God whispered the promise of His justice to me. No I cannot trust in this world to bring about fairness. This world gives birth to corruption, imperfection, and sin. But I can put all my hope in God to send forth His justice. My hope for this to all end fair and right needed to rest in God, not in the expectations of our government, adoption agency, or anyone else. From this day forward I carried this verse in my heart. I thought about it all the time. Every time my knees went weak over some new injustice, I would just repeat this verse in my mind to help myself remember God’s character. HE is JUST. HE UPHOLDS THE CAUSE of the needy.

And now, last week we saw the faithfulness of God when Samuel’s visa was in Kofi’s hands. God’s word NEVER FAILS. He has remained true to his character in this verse. And because of this, Samuel’s new name will be

JUSTICE

Now, every time we speak Samuel’s new name – Justice – we will be proclaiming that God came through for Him. Samuel and his birthmother were powerless, poor, oppressed, needy, and persecuted. But God is faithful. And He loves justice (Psalm 99:4 & Isaiah 61:8). Now, we don’t just have to read about God’s justice and hope that it is true. Now we’ve experienced it, and we can confidently say as David did I KNOW THAT THE LORD SECURES JUSTICE FOR THE POOR AND UPHOLDS THE CAUSE OF THE NEEDY. Samuel has an unbelievable God story already. And now, his new name will reflect God’s faithfulness in this adoption.

Monday, September 20, 2010

We're Changing Samuel's Name

Up until a few months ago, we hadn’t given any thought to changing Samuel’s name. His name was not hard to pronounce, we liked it, and since he was older we thought that he’d be pretty used to his name by now so no reason to complicate things. Then one day at church a friend gave me the book Adopted For Life (by Russell Moore). She was letting me borrow it for awhile. We got started talking about some of the ideas expressed in the book and she said, “Have you ever thought of changing Samuel’s name? The author talks through some of the reasons why he and his wife changed their son’s names when they adopted. I was just wondering since you will soon have two Samuels in the house…..” Hmmmm. I hadn’t really thought of it. But I was interested to hear what the author had to say about it. This friend gave me this book to borrow right before our last trip to Ghana in June, which was supposed to be Samuel’s homecoming. I was reading a different book for the flight to Ghana, and then because of the chaos of our time there and emotional trip home, I didn’t get a chance to even open this new book.

In early July I was out for a run. And, as I was running, Samuel’s new name popped into my head. It was like one second I wasn’t even thinking about the subject, and the next second his new name was sitting right on my brain. In the days following this, I mentioned the new name idea to Jake and he loved it! So we decided to pray about the new name, and I asked God to make it clear if we should change it.

Then in early August, Yaw’s family came to visit. One morning Esi and I were alone and driving in the car together, and I decided to bring up this idea of changing Samuel’s name to her. I was really wanting some feedback from her of how she thought Samuel would react to us wanting to change his name. And I also wanted her opinion culturally….if this sounded like something that was going to be largely detrimental to not upholding his culture/African heritage. When I explained our thoughts about it, she looked at me, smiled and said, “You know, a few weeks ago I had a dream that you would change Samuel’s name.” She said, “I don’t know if subconsciously I had been thinking about it, and that’s why I dreamed it, or if it was just a plain old dream. But, you mentioning this was not a surprise, and I think that it would be fine.” We went on talking about it for a few minutes, and she assured me that culturally, people in Ghana often have more than one name anyways! I had forgotten about that. Her daughter’s African name is Aku, but her American name is Stella. Esi even has two names…..Esi & Mercy. :)

Now, eventually I did open up the book that I had borrowed from my friend, and when I read the section about re-naming, it confirmed this idea of changing Samuel’s name. I can’t even begin to summarize the great points that the author makes about biblical examples of name changes. But, the point is this: a name is important to one’s identity. And, in the Bible, God often changed people’s names once they encountered him in a personal way. Each time the name was changed, the new name often depicted the encounter with God, or a promise from God of what was to come in this person’s life. For example Abram to Abraham (a childless man wed to a barren woman who went on to be the father of a multitude of nations), Jacob to Israel (so re-named because he had struggled with God and men and won), Simon to Peter (a rock), and the list goes on. If you have any biblical knowledge regarding these characters, you will know that their new names described them well.

Samuel means ‘God Heard’. And I believe this is a perfect description of Samuel’s former life in Ghana. Absolutely perfect. Which is why we will keep this name as his middle name. But now Samuel will start a new chapter. The pain, struggles, and desperation of his cries that God heard will always be part of him. That will always be there. But a new day has come. We are NOT leaving the past behind. We will remember it, talk about it, and continually give thanks to God of where Samuel’s life started and where God is taking it now. We will remember God’s work in this adoption. God heard the cries of Samuel and his birthmother. And now God has given Samuel a new life. And Samuel will get a new name. Which I will share with you all tomorrow. :) For now I wanted to share the name art picture project that I had finished out on our last trip in Ghana. When I put these pictures into the collage to post on here, some of the edges got a little cut off, but hopefully you get the idea and can still make out the letters. I no longer will be hanging this in his room, but I will put this in his keepsake book, because his Ghanaian name will always be a part of him. :)

Friday, September 17, 2010

The Sweetest Words

Jake was on the road by 5:30am this morning to speak at an FCA group. At 6:14am he texted me this:

Everything is done. Kofi has the visa.

At 6:57am Samuel called. And I got to say the sweetest words to him:

Samuel, you get to come home.

You have no idea what it means to me to finally get to say those words. Saying those words means that God came through for us. There is nothing else in the entire world that I want my kids to know other than that they can put their trust in God, and HE WILL COME THROUGH!

I will have a few more adoption related posts next week before we head out. Here is our flight schedule:

Depart: Sept 22, 7am, DL 3108
We have a few connection flights to catch.
Arrive in Ghana: Sept 23, 7:30am, on DL 166

Depart from Ghana: Sept 25, 12:30am, DL 225
We have a few connections once we get to U.S.
Arrive at Des Moines Int’l Airport: Sept 25, 4:04pm, DL 4070

If you hear any hollering up in the sky on these days, don’t worry, it’s just me celebrating the victory. :)

Thursday, September 16, 2010

VISA HAS BEEN PRINTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

From the Embassy earlier today:

Dear Mr. Sullivan:

We wish to inform you that your child’s case is complete and his visa has been printed. Please pick up or have your power of attorney pick up his visa on Friday, September 17, 2010 at 7:30am. Also, please bring a copy of this email to be admitted to the Consular Section.

We hope this information is helpful to you and please let us know if we may be of further assistance.

Kind regards,
U.S. Embassy Accra
Consular Section

Is that music to your ears or what?!?!?! THANK YOU GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jake is booking our flight as we speak. The flight we've picked leaves next Wednesday, Sept 22 and we arrive back home Saturday afternoon, Sept 25 so it will be a really short trip. Just Jake and I will be going. Another huge blessing in all of this is that Golden Rule Travel was able to exchange Samuel's unused ticket from June to this flight, so we won't have to eat the money we had spent on that June ticket. Praise God!

WOW. What can I say? What an amazing ride this has been. My mind just keeps repeating back the scriptures and promises from God that I have engraved in my heart from this whole experience. The one that is screaming out from inside of me right now are these words from Jesus in John 14:18:

I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you.

Samuel ~ WE'RE COMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!